Dear Nadia Itani-Ravenswick-Valentine-et all,

I've made a terrible mistake, one I recognized too late to change the wrongs
I've done. I myself am a mistake, I've learned, a tool and means to an end. I
was born of a human father, and a mother bred regal and fair. Leanan, the
human folk tend to call her, and I found only recently that these sidhe devil
women are as vampires to the Romanians, preying on the poets and the muses in
search of more. They're insatiable creatures, and my mother is amongst them.
She'd, at one point, lost her soul though I fear now she never had one. I went
about the means of reviving it in to the empty shell that was her wandering
body with the help of my mother's lover. I know now she used me for her own
personal gain, and in the process I destroyed the lives of many. The Knights,
for example... Even I can't believe the things I made them do, taking Minetta
Collins hostage, forcing Lucas Wylder to murder his former fiancee. They were
cruel, but I saw them fit in order to protect my mother. I kidnapped and
tortured Nineveh, dangled his beloved friend in front of him, I deceived the
only two people in my life that probably ever loved me for what I was, rather
than the promise of what I could be.. my adopted daughters Briony and Defrin..
I allowed a cruel, and evil man to attempt to smother what is probably the
only shred of light, and untained good in this world, which is now lost to my
horrible mother for what I fear is forever. I became as I swore I wouldn't, a
monster, and I fear I may have brought about the end of something.. someone
very important.

I stole something from you, something of great value. The importance of this
knows no bounds, not only to you, but to many other people and should it
continue to live as, and whre it is I'm sure you know as well as I do what
will happen to it. To him. I never intended for him to end up where he is now,
even I am aware of the consequences of that, and I'm sure my horrible mother
is as well, for she has made no efforts to withdraw him from her hold and
return him to where he belongs. I believe I have the means to prevent an end
none of us want to see, should you wish for my help. I ask not for your
forgiveness, because I know now that nothing I can do will ever make up for
the horrible things I have done, not only to those people, but specifically to
you, your family, and most specifically, to him. Still, if you will have my
help, I'll do everything in my power to return him to you.

Sincerely,
Xyn